Speak louder...

You tell me actions speak louder than words, but then you say it's the thoughts that count?


As far as I know, all the cool magical stuff in us, in our lives, happens when intentions, thoughts, words, and actions are part of one whole.

And then there are times when our actions speak louder than our love.

~ Jane Bravo

Till I can laugh till I can cry.

It's not that I want my days to be easy. No, not at all.
Just these days, I can only manage the not-so-hard kind of days.

It's not like I'm doing some kind of a parade, and praying it doesn't rain on my parade. 
I happen to like the rain, I'm used to it raining on my parade actually. 

It's just the thunderstorms and the floods. I still need to learn how to dance during those... but right now, I can only manage the not-so-hard kind of days.

Days are hard some days. 
The days when things aren't at all the way I want them to be. These days are hard. When the big things don't matter because the little things don't stop pinching.

You'll see me laugh the most on the hard days. I'll seem the happiest. 
I'm laughing because I am pushing myself. Because I'm trying to push the laughter inside, till it can touch my soul, my day, my life. Till the smile can reach my eyes.
Till I can laugh till I can cry.

~ Jane Bravo

It's all a big melting pot - life, this world.

The greatest feeling is knowing that you have the power to do something.
And then, by that rule, I suppose, the saddest feeling is knowing you could have done something because it was in your power and you didn't do it.

Another very hard to do thing, but wonderful to know feeling, is when you can give a person the means to do something that you wanted to do but didn't have the means to. Why hold back when you can give someone that? How would you have felt if someone had given it to you when you didn't have it? Why don't you want someone to feel what you could have felt? Imagine if at that time there was someone standing where you are standing now - able to do, but not doing? How does it make you feel? Can you respect them - the ones who didn't do it when they could do it for you? Or do you lose respect for yourself knowing that you are the same as they were?

It's all a big melting pot - life, this world.
We are all adding things to it, you know... What are you putting into it?

~JaneBravo 

~ By Jane Bravo

There's a method to my madness -

A feeling - a happiness, a sadness,

Of things that could be, but can't be -

Of 'if' and 'but' and 'maybe';

Of what and whom I wanted most,

A dream that haunts me like a ghost.

But sweetly like a lovers kiss -

Thirty odd seconds of utter bliss...

That leave a life changed forever?

Like a bond so old you cannot sever.

The one with roots inside my heart

In light, in sunshine, in times of dark.

There's a method to my madness -

A feeling - a happiness, a sadness.

Of things that could be, but can't be -

Of 'if' and 'but' and 'maybe'.

I think, that in every single day now I want more time...
more time to think all my thoughts, 
to say all my words, to write them down, to read them all, 
maybe even say them all out loud...? 
And then I want to dream of all the things I had been thinking about, and make the good ones happen for real, and make fixes for the bad ones.
And when I am done with all the thinking and dreaming and doing, 
I want to think about all the things I made happen.
And also imagine I would do them all over the same way if I got another chance to.

~ JaneBravo

Ordinary is Real.

Is it the choice that leads you to the circumstance, or is it the circumstance that leads you to the choice?
You choose something and you end up somewhere - you end up somewhere where you have to choose something. What comes first? The chicken and the egg scenario of life.

If I have learned one thing in my life, it is to always make time to say things, especially if they are true.
So, here goes nothing... or here goes something...

I used to think no one can make me laugh like from inside, like make my soul laugh - and also that no one can make my spirit cry... But I have learned that it can happen. Some people move you. They get inside your head, they love you, they hurt you, they understand you, or they mess you up. 

There is a difference between being alone, and being lonely. Alone is still some sense of 'complete', loneliness - incomplete. And the two circumstances together - confusing. 

I'm in a daze with life, and I know the time is so limited here. 

I felt some comfort in knowing that nothing more can hurt me. That everything that could possibly hurt a person has been done to me, and I have survived it with dignity. But there continue to be hurts along the way... And I continue to survive them, with dignity. 

I don't know what is the 'right way to live' or the 'wrong way to live'.
Right... Wrong... That is different, for different people - it is all so relative.
Everything is. Truth is relative too. My truth is nothing like your truth. It is our own core belief. What belongs to us, what we belong to. I think, only compassion is universal, and respect. Love is not unconditonal - but compassion and respect are. And that is the most important thing I have learned in my life. 

I am just like you, and I am nothing like you. And that makes us exactly the same. 
We are both so real, and both
so ordinary. 

~ Jane Bravo

Love, Terms & Conditions Apply.

Some people are supposed to love me unconditionally. But they never have, and I think they never will.

Maybe because their people did not love them unconditionally and so they never learned how to love that way?
I do love these people without getting anything from them - because that is me, because that feels right, and good, and because that helps me sleep most nights. But sometimes it takes all the energy out of me to keep loving them and getting nothing and then I can't love anything for a little while; till I can.

~ Jane Bravo